Thursday, March 26, 2009

Not much new to report...

I'm still schlepping on with phase 2 of the herbs. My temps have been ridiculously low for more than a week. (96.8 to 97.1) I'm not really sure what that means... maybe I'm on may way to swinging into some sort of a real cycle.

I'm on CD45 so far with no hint toward ovulation again since that first time. I'll guess we'll see how it goes.

I am excited to report however, that I have lost 20 pounds and 2 1/2 inches off of my waist! Woot! Although... I still feel that I have a lot more to go along the lines of true "fitness". I have, however, acheieved my 2nd short term goal.

The first goal was accomplished when I reached 10 consecutive weeks of "fitness".

The second goal was the 20 pound mark.

Next up, 6.8 more pounds to reach the 10% of body weight lost. (Please don't do the math to figure out my starting weight!) I also hope to have lost a total of 30 pounds by the time the Cystic Fibrosis walk comes in May. Although, I think that might be overzealous since my weekly weight loss has slowed considerably since I first started.

Ultimately, my first BIG goal for "fitness" is to reach the 20% mark of total body weight loss. The Reproductive Endocrinologist claims that my cycle will magically re-appear. I seriously doubt this because this problem was ocurring many more pounds before that. I guess we'll see. Regardless, I want to lose the weight so I can have a healthy pregnancy and that means in my eyes, that I need to lose at least 50 more pounds from where I am now -- preferably more. Oy.
In all actuality, I've given myself a year to "get ready". If I start to cycle reliably sooner than that, then I may have to reconsider my plan, weight be damned. I doubt that is likely, but I'm not getting any younger and who knows how many tries it would take for anything to "stick". I can still try and continue my "fitness" plan.

Sunday, March 15, 2009


H & I went to the zoo yesterday with J. and Sandy and their two girls. We saw the CUTEST thing EVER:

Born Thanksgiving Day 2008 at a little over 6 pounds!

Not the best pictures because of the glass, but he's damn cute! His name is Taji.

Taji is not the only celebrity at the zoo right now. He's father Ramses (above left) is apparently one of only 12 or so white lions in captivity. He was featured in People Magazine last spring.

Friday, March 13, 2009


I went for acupuncture treatment yesterday and they also did moxa. So very strange. How did they figure out that putting little needles into your body and leaving them there did something? To expand on that thought, what made them think to heat up the needles with moxa?

I did ask for some recommended reading so I can learn more about the theory behind these treatments and what they do.

Patricia recommended:

I just ordered 3 books from Amazon (that I don't have yet), so I won't be ordering these for a bit. When I've read them, I'll try to report back.

This Is Me

This is me today.

I cannot stop eating.

I have eaten so much... that I have only 4 points left on my daily points for dinner. (I have plenty of weekly points to borrow from thankfully.)

I know that I'm actually hungry as opposed to just thinking I am because I have eaten (as well as a lot of other stuff) 3 apples and a HUMONGOUS salad. No one over eats on vegetables and apples.

The question is... why the heck am I so ravenous!?

Monday, March 9, 2009

Are You A Checker?

I have kind of a germ problem. As in... I don't like them.

I hate using public restrooms, but I have to pee like crazy -- particularly at work when I'm drinking my water all day long.

So, I try to touch as little as possible when I go into the bathroom. All the while, I am incredibly concious that I do not touch my face with my hands until I've washed. I then dry my hands with a paper towel, which I retain and use to open the door. Even better if the door pushes to open, then I just use my foot.

At work, they are kind enough to provide a nearly entirely touchless bathroom experience (or what I consider to be bathroom nirvana). The soap, toilet, water, and papertowels are all equipped with motion detection. (Although I still have to use a papertowel to open the door.)

So, today, as I'm sitting upon the toilet on my little paper doiley-- that I'm sure does nothing but give me the false sense that I'm not sitting in dried pee drippings (damn hoverers) -- I watched, through the crack in the stall, a person who just left a toilet area - quickly put her hands under the water for like 5 seconds and then proceed to rub them in her curly hair to fix some frizz. I was horrified. She then went to the touchless (THANK GOD) blower and dried her hands and left.


The worst part is that I have seen this same person on at LEAST 3 other occasions fail to use soap after leaving the toilet. I did try to give her the benefit of the doubt -- thinking maybe I missed it -- but still disapproved of how little she washed her hands. (No where NEAR the 30 seconds that is recommended!) Now, there is NO mistaking whether or not she uses soap, because the new touchless dispensers make noise when they squirt.

I frequently sit on the toilet and observe the leaving patrons to see if they are washing their hands properly. I tell you... it is far more common that you want to know.

My other public bathroom pet peeve (besides hovering tinklers) - is those that do not flush.

Today, upon exiting the stalls in sync. H said to me...

"I can't believe that lady just walked in there and used that toilet! I mean, she had to flush the Spinning Turd of Destruction 2 times. What if it had clogged?! Do you think I would've been able to launch myself off the toilet and out of the stall because it overflowed?? You know the lady that was at the stink left that turd in there. How could she do that? I mean it was STILL SPINNING when I got to it! What kind ofperson leaves a spinning turd???"

She is so right though! I am with John Cage -- I like a fresh bowl and I think they should in fact make toilet remotes. I refuse to flush someone else's stuff. I mean, I don't even like flushing my own. Those toilets flush with such force that I fear that they are spitting tiny turdular particals into the air which one could then inhale. So, I am very careful not to step too far away from the toilet while I'm putting myself back together. This way, I can make a run for it and be out of the stall before it flushes! I have actually been known to cover my face in my shirt while still in the stall if I feel I have strayed too far and may have triggered the auto flusher.

Another thing. At the two large companies I have worked, the coffee stations are ALWAYS located near the bathroom. I'm sure this is for convenience sake, but in my opinion it is HORRIBLE PLANNING. Imagine this: Curly Red Headed Pee hair girl leaves the bathroom with her unwashed hands and her pee hair and decides to grab a cup of coffee.

1. She grabs the stack of cups (that eveyrone insists on pulling out of the protective, hygienic, plastic sleeve) and separates a cup while in the process of touching the lips of several cups when trying to pull them apart.

2. Next, with her pee (possibly poop) hands she reaches for the handle of the coffee pot (we're going to assume for the purposes of this example that she doesn't need to make a new pot because I'm not sure I have time to type out all ofthe horrors of that scenario) and pours some coffee into her cup.

3. Creamer is then added to her coffee which has been lifted and poured with her nasty hands.

4. Time to stir the coffee! She then reaches her tinkle ridden digits into the entire box of coffee stirrers... not taking care to be sure to grab JUST ONE and in the process touches about 10 or 12 stirrers.

5. Two minutes later, you walk up with your washed hands and follow the same procedure. God only knows, what you're about to ingest!

So, are you a checker? Do you watch for the non-handwashers of your company? I have been resisting the urge to leave a note on her desk telling her how gross it is that she doesn't wash her hands properly. God knows what she's infecting us all with!

Do you check to make sure you've left no bits behind in the toilet when you're done? I really hope so.

I think we should start a movement... maybe tickets should be handed out for failure to void your turds, or negligent and gross soap neglect.

Some day, maybe I'll tell you about the crazy lady that sits behind H. She has been known to hock lugies into her trash can while still sitting at her desk...

Friday, March 6, 2009

It's Official...

I actually did not ovulate, but at least my body is moving in the right direction.

I've moved back to taking Phase 2.

Here's a summary of what Patricia had to say over the last few days:

"Phase 3 is taken from + OPK until the temp rise, usually from 3' F to 1' F, which indicates that you have in fact ovulated. If the temp rise does not last it can indicate that your body was trying to ovulated but the chemistry was still just not right and ovulation may have failed. In this case I recommend staying on phase 3 for 3 days, if the temp spikes again and stays up you stop phase 3 and start phase 4. If the temp does not spike go back to phase 2 and continue nourishing yin. Yin generates yang so if you don't have enough yang to trigger an ovulation you go back to building yin which will in turn strengthen yang to try to release an egg again. To clarify, you are never on phase 3 and 4 at the same time 3 leads into 4. "

"It looks to me like you didn't actually ovulate. Your body is trying hard but the temp. didn't stay up and the temps at the beginning are really high. So it looks like the whole thing is off. It's almost backwards. A normal biphasic pattern on a chart would be lower temps in the follicular phase(first 14 days) then higher temps in the luteal phase(last fourteen days). So we still have some work to do. But I'm really encouraged that you got your period so give it time it will balance out. Your working hard and your doing a lot of really healthy things so it will be reflected in time on the chart. "

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Breaking the Rules

I know I said I wouldn't be posting about secretions and giving those sorts of updates. But in view of the fact that I have no idea what is going on with my body at the moment.. I am about to do just that.

At the request of Sarah over at *just* a mom here is what my current chart looks like:

A couple of things to note:

1. This is my first cycle after coming off of birth control pills.

2. My temperature spike and my + OPK occurred on the same day.

3. The next day the temp kind of plunged, which I think means that my body tried to ovulate and then didn't.

4. I only got a very little bit of EWCM and in general, not much is going on in that department at all.

I sent the chart to Patricia, I'm hoping to hear back from her today. I need to figure this out because I either need to start Phase 4, or go back to Phase 2 and try again.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


I am ready for spring.

At 8:20am this morning, my car was 19 degrees. I am typically a person who cannot get cool. Well, today, I cannot get warm! I don't know if it's the weight loss (20 lbs in 8 weeks!) or the fact that my hormones are getting reaquainted or what. But damnit, I need a hot chocolate.

Also, my allergies feel that spring is already here. Not to be gross, but I must have blown my nose 20 times this morning before I left the house. I want to stick something sharp in my ear and take a fork to the back of my throat to stop the itching. THANK GOD I am going to the allergist tomorrow. I'm glad he insisted on seeing me back in 6 months... I need something more.

I'm still continuing to chart and I am unclear as to how this whole thing is supposed to work. I guess I should pick up a copy of Taking Charge of Your Fertility. After I got a temperature spike Thursday morning and my positive p-stick on Thursday afternoon, I assumed everything went off without a hitch. Now, I'm not so sure.

My temperature plummeted on Friday morning and I thought that I recalled that it should kind of stay up. So, I contacted Patricia to let her know I needed to order some Phase 4 (because I thought I was about to ovulate) -- and then I asked for some clarification on when to begin taking it. This only confused me further.

On Friday night, about 30 hours after my + OPK I thought I felt ovulatory pain. So, what I'm trying to find out now, is what my temperature should be doing. It's been going up a little bit each day since then, but not all that high. I just sent her my charts so hopefully she'll be able to explain what's going on.

I think if I'm understanding this correctly, I should've gotten a + OPK, THEN a temperature spike. But I got temp spike in the morning, - opk in the morning, + OPK in the afternoon, and then a - OPK in the evening. The following morning after temperature spike, my temperature plummeted and has had a gradual rise since then.

Today is CD24 (cycle day 24) ... + OPK (ovulation predictor kit - pstick) was on CD18.

I'm so confused!